The ride isn't over yet..

Xray looked perfect. But so did the cast so we're leaving it on for 6 more weeks. In 4 weeks she has a mri to help decide what happens at the 6 week appointment. The upside,  someone else will only be taking care of her for only a week and a half when I have to go back to work. Fun.

Today's the day!

We find out this after noon what happens to the cast. My expectations are a second cast. My hopes are a brace.

But first off to wic to get these next few months worth of formula.

Oh and Pip is 8 months old today! 

We have a teething child.

6 days. 6 days and we'll go in to see the orthopedic doc. 6 days we'll have that magical xray to tell us how her hip is doing. 6 days and we'll see our baby girl's legs again. For how long, I don't know. She might go back into a cast. This is what I'm prepared to hear. This is what I'm preparing myself for. I did it for six weeks. But I won't be doing it alone for the last 6 weeks. I think I'll be going back to work in August. Hopefully part time so Lainee won't be in someone else's care for too long. She did recently have her first sleepover at her babchi's house. The next day I had to pull and replace all the gauze from her bandage because it was soiled. It could've happened on my watch, yes. But I felt bad that it happened on my mils. And the gauze smelled absolutely rancid. I also got a peek at her incision. It looks really good, nothing oozing (I would hope not anyway it was to be healed after 2 weeks, didn't smell after I removed the gauze. No redness and not painful for me to poke at. I shoved some clean gauze in there so the bandage wouldn't touch the incision and repaired the bandage with more bandage lol.

6 days and our baby girl will be 8 months old. 8 months. A lot has happened in that time frame. She's our everything even though she's a banshee. She's my baby girl. My one and only. My little boy's baby sister. And she's teething. It's sooo close to breaking the surface. She chews on everything. Her teething vs my son's teething 3 years ago. Man, I'd take an ear infection with every tooth over her being fussy and in a cast. But. We go day by day. It's gotten us this far. 6 days out of an answer.

I watch some things Alek does for Pip. And I love it. He's never trying to hurt her or seems jealous when I'm trying to do things for her. He's the best big brother any lil girl could ask for. I hope they have that bond for life.

Not much longer!

So I stopped by my job (old job?) On Thursday after my Dr appointment - btw my lungs look great, just lots of scarring of course. And I'm no longer special, they had a mom on the ventilator guve birth to twins in her Icu room (not sicu like yours truly, which is even more rare but still rare enough). Anyway, stopped by to meet the new director and assistant director to say "hey I worked here and am probably coming back in September!". Well. Long story short, I might go back part time in August. Regardless if Pip comes out of the cast for good and goes into a brace or goes in to another cast. I got offered something I love doing, and if they'll let me be part time it'll be even better. Plus we just had to buy a new ac. Talk about inconvenient! And there was no fixing it. It's like 15 years old. So that cost on top of a single income household? Yeah. Things need to change.

Noooo sleep for the wicked, money don't grow on trees

So we've been trying a couple of things to get into a routine. And just when I thought I had it figured out, I get thrown through a loop. So. Here I am. 5 am. With a wide awake baby while the rest of the house sleeps.

I know I wouldn't trade being called mommy for any job title in the world. And I'm doing what I've wanted to do, stay home with my children. But it's getting tiring when I still do all the work and if I ask for help I get "you wanted this". Yes, well, if I wanted to be a single stay at home mother.. I won't go there. He provides money. Which is needed to run things around here.

Which is why I am attempting to work from home by being a consultant for Jamberry nails. Any extra income would be great. And if I can profit enough from it come September and not go back to work or go back part time I'll be happy.

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Must establish a better routine!

How do you wear a child out that can't be that physical? One that is 7.5 months old but is doing things at a 5 month old's level (yay her adjusted age is 5 months today! ). Lainee has been the baby that slept from 11-7 after about a month of being home from nicu. Until the spica came along. Or growth spurts. But there's only been two of those so far. But since the spica she'll sleep more during the day and then get up a few times each night, or like tonight every hour on the hour since 1am - currently it's 4am. I guess I'll have to establish a better routine! Keep her awake longer and wake her from longer naps. This should be fun.

Only 2 weeks and 3 days left to see what were doing. Another cast or a brace.

Also, yesterday was the 4th. Our parents came over to swim and eat and then enjoy yard fireworks. It was a lot of fun. As much fun as everyone getting to swim except you, because you have to clip tabs off diapers to stuff. Yup.

Pity party, table for 1

My days have been consumed with swimming. We were given a huge above ground pool a couple of years ago and just set it up Sunday. So I'm teaching my 3 year old how to swim while Pip sleeps. Each time I get into the pool I want to pout. I want Lainee to experience it too this summer, and she can't. She loved the bath.

Also, my 3 year old is all boy. He has his sweet moments, where he'll grab my face out of the blue and kiss me. But thus kid doesn't want to cuddle and snuggle anymore. And the baby that's meant to do this is in this purple malformation. I just want to snuggle her again. I want her to roll over and sit up on her own. To try to crawl. I want her to get in the pool with us.

I'm so jealous of my friends who have kids a month or two younger/older than Lainee. One, because they don't have to deal with this cast. And two, because they don't have to deal with a preemie. Their kids are hitting milestones. I'm so ready for this cast to be off and my little girl able to do things other than stay in one spot all damn day.

/end pity party